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< Piro >

i wish i could render feelings on paper the way Abe can...

"pebbles in the snow"

Friday - February 7, 2003

[Piro] - 14:55:02 - [link here]

Before I get started, I want to let everyone know that both Seraphim and I will be at Katsucon next weekend (February 14-16) in Crystal City, Virginia. This will be Sarah's first con appearance ever, so you folks better behave :P Asmodeus will also be in attendance (this should prove interesting). So, if you live in the area or are planning to attend Katsu, be sure to stop by and see us. I'll post more information about our schedule here sometime next week. I know that one of the things I'll be doing is giving a drawing class (gulp) so bring your drawing pads.

It's been an odd week. Sunday night I was looking foreword to what i was assuming would be a nice, productive, easy going week. It turned out to be anything but. I did a lot of wheel spinning - things took forever to do, or i found myself idling aimlessly between tasks. Sometimes life feels like trudging thru snow in a vast open field. if you look back, its hard to see your tracks, and when you look ahead all you see is white and the edges of the field that never seem to get any closer. The tracks behind you fill with fresh snow, and going on seems to be a kind of endless, pointless toil...

Heheh. I'm getting to metaphorical these days. I finally watched the last ep of Haibane Renmei subbed, and the damn thing makes me well up to watch. The series reminds me how long its been since i really connected with an anime character. My emotive connectiveness with Reki is both disturbing and oddly comforting.

I suppose that the whole 'In Search of Lost Wings' series is some sort of cathartic exercise on my part. It's one part gushing Haibane fanboy and one part something else trying to get out.

One of the problems with me is that I tend to get too wrapped up in my own work. As much as I enjoy watching anime and playing games, I tend to get frustrated quickly and want to get to producing something. It's in periods of frustration or a weird kind of creative exhaustion that i turn to the works of other people to find my bearings. Being creative is like flying blind sometimes.

Ok, these winged analogies are getting out of hand... ^^;;

Recently i've been poking around the web a lot more to find and start exploring creative works by other people. Part of this is because in an effort to provide some exposure for other worthy webcomics that people might not know about. In order for this to be a truly honest exercise, i feel that i should not only read and explore the sites in some depth, but that I should try to link stuff that I really like - stuff that in my travels i find worth looking into.

On Monday i posted a linkup link to a really nice webcomic called Demonology 101. I was a little annoyed with the site because i kept going back to read more. ^_^ I even got an email from Faith and traded a few emails back and forth. It occurred to me that one of the things that i've missed with MT growing at the rate it did when it first went up was that I never really spent a lot of time socializing with other artists on the net.

When i think about it, part of the reason for this was that before I started MT, I was pretty focused on the Japanese CG art and fan art world, and didn't spend a lot of time perusing stuff outside of that genre. Then, when MT started to grow as quick as it did, i ended up focusing mostly on my own work, not able to really deal with the barrage of other webcomic and art sites out there that I should have. Most of my friends are non-art type people (points to dom, i rest my case :P) who has skill sets that were different than mine. I wonder why it is that I didn't learn to mingle more with other 'artists' on the web?

One could argue that my non-attention to other artists is a kind of elitism, but really it's not. I tend to shy away from other artist types for the same reason i gravitated to people older than me when i was growing up - competition makes me nervous. I have a built in inferiority complex that hasn't gone away with the growth of MT, it just got more... complex. ^^;; Looking at the work of other people always makes me feel, well, nervous.

I wonder if that's why i gravitated to the Japanese websites the way I did. I was an outsider in that realm, and therefore i didn't feel that i needed to compare my work to theirs directly. Funny, huh? I feel cautiously comfortable existing inside the walls of a artistic genre where I am an outsider. A little like a Haibane myself, settled in my own OldHome inside a wall that cannot be crossed....

ohhhhkay, focus, fred, focus...

Anyways, here i sit, with the ability to strike servers down with a single link (you'll note that they had to redirect calls from this page because the serverload was too high - Dormando from Rydia.net says that he'll have the capacity to deal with it next week, so be sure to check out Demonology 101 next week sometime if you can't get to it now.) I sit here with a huge server that does nothing but serve MT pages and run the forums, and it's starting to strain heavily under the load (necessitating the need to purchase another MT server for some clustering a hella lot sooner than we expected at first - I wasn't planning on buying Nayuki until May, but the way things are going, i might even need to plan on getting Ayu before summer. uguuuuuuuuu~~~)

I need to figure out how to give props and links where they are due without melting servers. In most cases, for sites that already get a lot of traffic, its not a huge deal, but sites that have a lot of back comics or don't get a ton daily traffic suffer mightily under megadotting (if you'll pardon the blatant spoofing of the term 'slashdotting' - sorry rob ^^;;).

Oddly enough, it seems to happen to me too. I got a frantic call today from Kei, my publisher - looks like the mt books are gone - aside from the books that they have for Katsucon next week, the first print run is kaputz. ^^;; gee wiz, people. Another print run is underway, and in about two weeks the 2nd edition will be available - if you ordered a book recently or were planning on doing so, our apologies for any delays in getting you your book. Don't worry, they'll print however many they have to :)

Now, i need to get back to work on 'Warmth'. I'm already behind (big surprise, huh). What i really need to do is not give into the wandering desire to draw that little sketch of Raven from Demonology 101 that's been bouncing around in the back of my head for the past week. Giving into the desire to freesketch stuff isn't always bad. The 'Lost Wings' series is a good vehicle for it, and such drawings are good for clearing the mind, but it's also a lot like tossing pebbles into the snow...

< Dom >

Benpi naotta...

"Here comes daredevil!"

Monday - February 10, 2003

[Dom] - 00:00:00 - [link here]

Update 2/11: Kei has informed me that IC Entertainment has just started taking pre-orders for MT Book 2. While the book will burn holes in my eyes, you guys might want to get a copy, so there's the link right there. If you want to be one click lazier, click here for the pre-order page. (please note that IC Entertainment is not taking pre-orders for Book 2 - piro)

Short rant for now... gotta get some sleep so I can have some rest before I go and vegetate in front of my arcade's newly acquired GGXX machine. Woohoo, people other than my roommate to play against!

I have this new game in my possession, borrowed from UkiyaShun. It's called Baldr [sic] Force, and the best way to describe the gameplay would be a sort of Armored Core played with a Smash TV view/pace. I haven't installed it yet, due to work and Guilty Gear concerns, but I really want to go around jump-kicking and gut-punching other mecha. Oh, sure, and using the buckshot shotgun and other weapons.

Oh yeah. And the game happens to have porn in it. Not like I care--I can always just put a weight on the enter key and do some other reading. I did that for Comic Party, too. Though Comic Party was cool because there was only one porn scene per character, and while you saw it coming a mile away, you could just skip it and get to the good stuff, like "Shitteta yo... sonna koto, zutto mae kara" and such.

I've been reading my manga like a good boy--finally managed to get around to Shinesman, which was well worth the effort. I'm probably moving on to Ken's recommendation, "Adesugata Junjyou BOY", about a guy who is ordered to attend an all-girl's school so he can learn how to play girls in kabuki. I'm probably not going to pick up Pocky's recommendation, though, which is the same premise plus smut. I might be tempted to pick up Fruits Basket just 'cuz I've come to like the show (and it's become a hobby of mine to find grammar/spelling errors in Funimation's subs... not knocking the disc, just sayin') and want to see if the manga's just as fun.

I'm finally putting something on Oop-ack.com! You'll see soon... but basically, the subtitling group I'm in (Doquote 262, if you care) is gathering money for our GTO drama translations the old-fashioned way... asking for sponsorships. So at least temporarily, there will be information on my poor, unused domain. After that project's done, I can actually work on a personal page. I'll put a link in this space as soon as the page is up. And, of course, when I get real information on that, I'll start maintaining oop-ack.com for real. Projected date I'll find serious time to work on a website? Hmm... probably June, right after my E3/ACen marathon.

Oh, and I've decided to pick up my abandoned project to gain a broad knowledge of American film history. I lived through the jingoistic war flicks of the '80s, studied a lot of silent films as a film/English student in Berkeley, and am going through Film Noir (which happens to be the golden age of narrative) now. Tasty, tasty Double Indemnity and Sunset Boulevard...

After this, I'll probably watch the cold war flicks of the '50s-I was a Communist for the FBI is on my short list. I've already seen a lot of the social apologist movies of the '50s too, so after that I'll probably touch on the auteur movement, and then... I dunno what I do after the auteur movement. Maybe I'll talk to my adaptation professor and finally kick my screenplay ideas into gear. Who knows... it's all good, I get to watch more movies however it goes.

Aaaaand it's time for me to go back to dreaming about Guilty Gear XX. Maybe I'll practice Slayer's semi-infinite just to annoy people... or maybe not.

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